Shifting From Survivor to Evolver
When I thought about writing my book as a teenager, blogging was not even something that was a “thing”. My plan was to write the book and that’s it…not! When my cousin initially talked me into blogging, I had decided that the blog posts would be specifically about my cancer journey. That’s how I got started with my initial blog site “A Survivor’s Story”. I did not mind letting people see that part of my life, so I wrote about it. However, this was not always the case. When I was diagnosed at the age of 13, I was ashamed to say I had cancer. Why, you ask? Because in the 90’s cancer was looked at the same way HIV was, at least to kids. Kids were so mean to me. Some went as far as to say they didn’t want to be around me because they were afraid they were going to “catch” cancer. They were so misinformed! But as a child those words hurt and they scar you. So when I was diagnosed with the breast cancer in 2013, I couldn’t help but to think about that rejection. I was initially afraid to even acknowledge the cancer. How? I was having my breast removed and receiving chemotherapy treatments that made me lose my hair. I just continued to work as normal and move like it didn’t exist until I felt or got sick from the drugs. Reality set in quick! I couldn’t run from it or hide it but it wasn’t until I met to special survivors that I began to accept what was my new normal.
It was then that I was comfortable with writing about my experience with cancer. In “A Survivor’s Story” every inch of my cancer journey was exposed. I allowed my followers to see the good, bad and the ugly side of cancer. However, anything else was off limits. Anyone who knows me knows that I am a private person. I’m a secret keeper and blogging about my personal life would be the farthest thing from something I’d do. The thought of writing about my personal life gave me anxiety. However, once I started to blog about my cancer journey, other things came up and I decided that I should share them. My blog was no longer just about what I was enduring as a cancer survivor but it was about how I navigated through life’s experiences. I shared my experiences, the process and how I came out on the other end.
I’m still an introvert and very private person but I’ve come a long way. It is in this process of evolving that I am learning that my story, no matter how much pain it exposes will be a blessing to someone else. My testimonies can save or change a life and that's my purpose here on earth. I've come to a place where I have embraced me, where I've been, and where I'm going. Every scar that I have tells a different story, to include how I evolved through it. I intend to share my stories on whatever platform God gives me. I’m not going to lie, I’m terrified but I’m prepared to tell my story, my truth and allow you (my followers/evolvers) to see me more intimately. Evolving Soul is about my spiritual and emotional growth as a woman through this thing called life.
Here I am blogging for the world to see and I’m going to try my best to have nothing off limits. So, I ask that you evolve with me!
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