Updated: Dec 12, 2019
2019 was the year of insight for me. I was truly able to recognize what God was doing in and around my life. I had experienced so much turmoil in the previous years but I understood that God had to prune me because I was to bear much fruit. I've said this many times before, we are not always waiting on God but God is waiting on us. A few years ago, I was dealing with someone who God told me wasn't ready for the next level of our relationship. So, I was forced to let that person go and I moved on with my life. Three years later we reconnected. My life is different at this point, I had been re-diagnosed and I was moving in a different direction. I was trusting God in ways that I had not ever imagined and peace was permeating every aspect of my life. A year into our re-connection and everything was great! Baecations, dates, finding and furnishing his new house and blending our families. Because there was history between us and some things happened in the past that I could say that I'm not so proud of, I understood that there was always going to be someone or something that would interfere with what we were building. And that day came. Our peace was disrupted and what we were building was at stake. What I came to realize was that he still wasn't ready and I was no longer that person that was willing to allow other people and their nonsense to disturb the peace that I had fought so hard to have. While it hurt me to walk away from someone that I had loved beyond this lifetime, it was good that I was afflicted. It is not always about us being ready for "it" but "it" being ready for us. I have no hard feelings because EVERYTHING works together for my good and God wouldn't have it any other way.
2020 is going to be the year of perspective and prosperity, I can feel it and see it. I've been on a mission to heal the broken places within me so that my hearts desires can manifest. I'm grateful for the pruning and the hardships because it is in those very moments that I have been developed. No matter what I have been through, I have lacked nothing! God is a God of hope, love, joy, peace, forgiveness, abundance and so much more.
I pray that your 2019 was a year of insight for you and that your 2020 brings you nothing but great things!